Diet Struggles

I have been having some diet struggle lately, especially this week. When I first started my journey, I didn't want to eat right, matter of fact, I was hell bent against it. I thought that working out would be enough. I wasn't a week into my journey when my mindset changed and my body wanted to eat better. So I hit the "diet" hard. I limited my caloric intake to around 1200 calories, stopped drinking soda and eating fast food. I did amazing for the first few months and as the weight came off and I was able to work harder during my workouts, I increased my calories. Now I am doing Insanity, which is a very demanding, intense workout. I have increased my caloric intake to around 1800-2000 calories. It isn't just that I am going over my calories on occasion, my love for sugar and coffee has been nagging at me. I have been finding myself having 2 cups of coffee on work days instead of my usual one. And no, I can't just have plain coffee, I have to have my 3 packs of sugar and a little creamer, well maybe too much creamer (2tbs). I also ended up having a whole cinnamon roll today, as well as a piece of cake to celebrate the departure of a coworker. It wouldn't feel so bad to splurge a little, however, my numbers on the scale have been going in the wrong direction. Yes, I know, some of it is probably muscle, BUT!!! I know there are a lot of people who think I am crazy, who think that I am small enough, to think that I have nothing to worry about. BUT, I was up there in weight at one point. No I wasn't obese, but I was enough overweight that it was affecting my life in a big way. I am just afraid of getting back there. Yes I am still working out and I hope that I never slack in that area, but I am really afraid of that slippery slope with my eating habits, that working out isn't enough to keep me fit. So today, I have to make a pledge to myself (even though it is around the holidays and parties and dinners and such will test me). I have to pledge that I will go back to making wiser decisions and try to avoid that dreaded sugar that I love so much. Or at least limit my sugar intake to once a week or less. Ok enough crazy talk, I am sure that I lost you at some point in my ranting, but I like to get my feelings out there, because I know that there are people who are feeling the same way. Keep Pushing Harder!!!!